Archive for December, 2010

Out of Chaos, Harmony

Tuesday, December 21st, 2010
Beauty in Chaos

Golden Beauty in Chaos

Change, or growth, is always preceded by chaos.  I’ve read about this and know it to be true from my own experience.  To cite a common example, when water boils you get steam, but you have to agitate the water molecules to a certain point first. Then you get the outcome you desire.

When I first began writing about my experience of cancer, I had decided to call the work “Protocol for Healing”.  It was going to be a documentary of all the things I did to successfully heal my body.  Sometime in the first month, during my morning meditation, I got a message from my angels to change the title to “Out of Chaos, Harmony”.  No sooner had I scribbled that down on paper, then a short verse “downloaded” into my head:

Out of darkness, light

Out of fear, hope

Out of chaos, harmony

In the stillness, I am.

 

  I loved the verse.  It came from a higher source and I knew the truth of it, felt it vibrate inside me.  So I wrote it down, not knowing what to do with it or where to put it.  My documentary took a different turn after that.  It became a story, not a technical journal of what I did to heal from cancer, but a story of how I bungled my way through a grueling experience, found the stillpoint, and emerged into the harmony of life. 

Did I think that by telling my story, others could do what I did and heal themselves too?  Yes, I did.  But I soon realized, in talking to the many people who sought me out, that it was a different picture for every single one of them.  Each person faced a unique chaos experience.  And if they could get through that, they could reach their stillpoint, and possibly heal.  My part was to show them options, that they had choices; and to give them as much love and support as I could.  Beyond that, it was their soul’s journey, their glorious opportunity to dig deep and find their own connection to the divine.  And then heal, if that was their “harmony”.  Sometimes it isn’t.  Sometimes it isn’t to stay on this plane.  Only that soul knows.

I am still learning, and I go back to read that verse often.  It speaks to me every time in a new way, somehow showing me exactly what I need to see in that moment.  When I ask, “where do I go from here?”, and patiently allow the answer to come, I am shown that there is always a germination period, and chaos comes first, then the stillpoint, then change.

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Observing…..or Judging?

Sunday, December 19th, 2010
Dolphin & Friend

Dolphin & Friend

There IS quite a distinction, but most of us, me included, go into the “J” place and we’re in the thick of it before we realize what’s going on. Our Inner Observer gets shut down before it even has a chance to engage! Personally, I’ve been noticing my own behavior more & more lately. It’s like watching myself in a movie – sometimes good, sometimes painfully not so good.

Judging, I’ve discovered, usually involves telling someone else, and carries with it the need to be validated, or made right. Observing, on the other hand, is merely evaluating with detachment; there is no need to be validated, and therefore no need to tell someone else.

For example, if someone doesn’t agree with you on a topic that’s important to you, what happens? Most people react, their auto-pilot instinct kicks in, they get defensive, and if the disagreement is strong enough, they view the “other opinion” as an attack on them. The need to be right(eous) becomes so overpowering, that the other person’s viewpoint becomes null and void and the conversation deteriorates rapidly.

Or, how about hearing that a family is having trouble with their kids. It seems their behavior is just out of control! As soon as you start thinking (or saying) “they should….” or “they really need to….”, you’re caught in the “J” trap – busted! Somehow, when we judge, we become involved in something that is none of our business, i.e. we step on another’s experience. This doesn’t serve either one.

But what if we could make a shift? Re-play the scenario with your friend who says “I disagree with you”. Before jumping into the defensive mode, take a deep breath. Pause, and even lean back a bit. Then, if possible, get out of your head and into your heart. In the twinkling of an eye, you will feel the shift. No longer will you be thinking “right & wrong”, you will be listening to your friend give you an opinion – and it won’t matter if they agree with you or not. It’s their viewpoint, that’s all.

It only takes a nano-second to shift, but oh, what a huge leap it is! The lesson is tolerance. Right now, as we attempt to evolve and transcend our present condition, it would be of great benefit to practice observing, be gentle with ourselves, each other and our differences. Opening our hearts and allowing each version of the One to be, just be. When relating from that place, we become softer, more forgiving, and are able to rise above the unimportant.

“Walk a mile in my shoes”. Yes, this means we can acknowledge and support each other on our journey, but it is not ours to interfere. There IS quite a distinction, when you think about it!

Namaste. Namaste. Namaste.

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Can you REALLY heal yourself?

Saturday, December 11th, 2010
YES, we can!
YES we can!!!

 There are many stories about people who have healed themselves, i.e. had a spontaneous remission, or had negative conditions in their body just disappear. How do they do it?

Some use laughter. I read about a woman who watched funny movies with her husband all the time, and kept herself in a constant state of having fun! She healed from cancer. Another person used herbs. Another played beautiful music. Another used sound, tones & vibrations. And the list goes on. Even drugs…..an oncologist in N.Y. combines chemotherapy treatments with music therapy, very successfully.

There are many tools, but the key that will fit the lock lies inside of you. Not outside. Making that subtle, but huge, shift from putting your trust in something outside to inside is what makes all the difference – it’s what makes the tool work. How you do it and what tool you choose is up to you. It’s the belief that you have the power to affect your physical body that shows up as the common thread in all the success stories.

My own personal story of cancer 4 years ago brought me to that lesson/knowing. Following surgery for ovarian & uterine cancer, I opted for an intensive 6-month chemo program. At death’s door, halfway through the program, I quit. I made the shift. No one told me to quit; no one told me what to do next. I just knew that I had an Inner Wisdom that would guide me back to health. How did I know? It was a communication with my soul. An inner voice said “trust me”. This inner voice, this wisdom, is your God-piece, or connection to Source. However you name it, that inside connection to the Divine is all you need. Then, and only then, will the tools work. 

  Remember the story of Peter walking on the water because he saw Jesus doing it? And as soon as he looked down and thought, “OMG, I don’t believe I’m walking on water”, he sank.  Doubt.  Jesus’ words about having faith the size of a mustard seed, was a huge teaching on belief in our own divine connection.

We are a spiritual being, a light body, that happens to have a physical body right now.  And we are here in earth school to experience and learn, always evolving to a higher version of ourselves.  It is our divine nature.  So yes, we can heal ourselves.  Absolutely!

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